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[24 Oct 2005|02:47am]
It's 2:47am, Jimmy just had a seizure and were on our way to the hospital.. :\
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I dont know!! [23 Oct 2005|11:19pm]
[ mood | confused ]

So I </b>had</b> this friend, who I thought was my best friend. Well anyway's, something happened and I'm getting the blame. I don't mind being confronted about it if it was something she thought I might have done. Then yeah, confront me. But I didn't do it and I have no idea why I'm being treated like this. I have been nothing but the best to this person. I was there when no body else was, why in the world would I do anything to hurt our friendship? Okay, so maybe I procrastinated with something but that in no way has any effected with what I'm getting blamed for. I don't know how to handle the situation because they don't want to hear anything I have to say. I don't know what they want me to say? I just want answers. I want to know why I was the only one getting blamed for this when there have been a number of people who could have done it, if in fact that's what was done. What would make me do that? What would make me put our friendship on the line? I have never done anything like that before why start there and why start with my best friend? But I give up, I can't change the why someone thinks about me. Even if this person one day realizes that she did make a mistake why would I want to be friends with someone who thinks of me like that, who whenever something goes wrong is gonna come to me and think I did it? I just dont know, theirs nothing I can do at this point. Honestly, I think about about it everyday. How can I change the way she feels? Why does she feel so strongly that I did this? I don't know, maybe its easier for her to think I did it so she has an excuse not to be friends with me anymore? I don't know!!!! I could tell toured the end out our friendship things were getting rocky but I thought that had to do with me hanging out with groups of people. I didn't know it was about this.. I just don't know what to do....


COME COME COME COME COME COME [18 Oct 2005|07:56pm]
When: Thursday Oct 20, 2005
at 2:30 PM

Where: corner of Smith and Labyrinth
Baltimore, MD 21208

Help fight ignorance. Thursday 2:30-6:30 please join in helping us promote gay/lesbian rights and tolerance. The protest will take place on Smith and Labyrinth in front of Pikesville High School, wear pink if you are a straight supporter and rainbow if you are out and proud, and bring signs!

This is in response to the disgusting display of ignorance against homosexuality in front of pikesville high earlier this week.

MEMORY!!!! [11 Oct 2005|12:57pm]
If you read this, even if we do not speak often,
comment with one memory of me.
It can be anything you want, good or bad.
Just as long as it happened.

Then post this on your livejournal to see
what other people remember about you.
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[26 Sep 2005|06:03pm]
I'm not dead! yay
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[13 Jul 2005|11:15pm]
So summers flying by real quick, meant some cool new people and such. I'm going to the ocean in a week with some friends.. I don't think I'm going to Florida this summer with my parents, I can't take off work that many days. BUT I'll have the place for 12 days all to myself, so anyone's more then welcome to come spend the night with me in a non sexual or sexual way =). But I'm planing on getting really drunk a couple of those nights, anyone else up for it? This is such a random update... Old friends are talking again, that makes me so happy :D!! Their are some fights between people but hopefully things will die down if we just give it time..

I don't know what else to say besides,
I need a dad that wont be such a cheap ass!

well thats all folks..
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I got a kitten!!!!!! =) [25 Jun 2005|11:17pm]
I went to adopt a pet the other day and brought home this 8 week old puff ball.. She's a cute, but I have yet to give her a name.. sooo feel free to throw out ideas.. thankssssss =)

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[05 Jun 2005|05:19pm]
Hi, I'm Melissa.. and I have a nut case for a father!!!!
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im bored and its bed time [25 May 2005|02:16am]
[ mood | tired ]

You May Be a Bit Dependent ...

You're more than a little preoccupied with being abandoned.

You need a lot of support in your life, at all times.

It's difficult for you to survive on your own...

And you don't reallly think you ever could.

You Are the Very Gay Winnie the Pooh!

Come on, he doesn't wear pants!
And he's a little too obsessed with Christopher Robin


[23 May 2005|02:53pm]
The Liberated One
You scored 22 out 45 experience and 30 out of 45 adventurousness!
You're quite liberated: you know sex and you like it, but you're far from being slutty. You're comfortable with your level of sexuality being somewhere between the virginal and the slutty, but without being either. You maintain the status quo.

My test tracked 2 variables How you compared to other people your age and gender:

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You scored higher than 71% on experience

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You scored higher than 70% on adventurousness
Link: The How Sexual Are You? Test written by Popcornisyum on OkCupid Free Online Dating

lets see who does this.. [19 May 2005|01:19am]
01. Reply with your name and I will write something about you.
02. I will then tell what song/movie remind me of you.
03. If I were to apply an o'clock to you, it would be...
04. I will try to name a single word that best describes you.
05. I'll tell you the most memorable moment I've had with you.
06. I will tell you what animal you remind me of.
07. I'll then tell you something that I've always wondered about you.
08. Put this in your journal
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an update.. yay [17 May 2005|04:55pm]
[ mood | blah ]

Life's been pretty sweet lately. In the last 2 months I've meant some pretty rad people. Summers here, I just hope its a good one!! I talked to Alana and she comes home July 10th. I can't wait, I miss her so much!! I didn't realize how much I missed her till I went to her house to see her mom the other day, just being in her house without her was sad. It's been a long 10 months without her!

Hopefully this summer I'll talk to some people that I lost touch with over the school year, you know.. since they are coming home from college and all. But who knows.. people change, people grow apart.. But then theirs the people you don't see for months and then when you see them again its like nothing has changed. That's awesome! Oh well..

My grandparents are up from Florida so that's really cool. Hopefully I'll see them a lot while they are here.

Everything else is going pretty good, I can't really complain to much. I just need to go shopping pretty bad.

I'll try to remember that I have this and update it more..


I stole from Dara! [16 May 2005|01:38pm]
[ mood | aggravated ]

1. Slept in your bed: Me?
2. Saw you cry: My mother
3. Made you cry: My mother
4. Spent the night with you: Sean
5. You shared a drink with: I don't know
6. You went to the movies with: Sean
7. You went to the mall with: Sean, Jon and Morgan
8. Yelled at you: parents.. most likey
9. Sent you an email: Casey
10. You kissed: psssh, don't go there please..

11. Said "I Love You" and meant it: To my parents and close friends
12. Gotten in a fight with your pet(s): with my pets? My pets? haha no, well wait maybe.. my ferret is pretty nuts. ha
13. Been to New York: drove thru new york
14. Been to Florida: a number of times
15. Been to California: I wish
16. Been to Hawaii: i want too
17. Been to Mexico: nope
18. Been to China: ooh yeah, i was there last week.. no
19. Been to Canada: nopies
20. Danced naked: who dosent?
21. Dreamed something really crazy and then it happened the next day: no
22. Wish you were the opposite sex: I'm not gonna lie, maybe just for masturbation reasons... haha
23. Had an imaginary friend: I had 3 that lived in my belly button, when i was little. lol

24. Red or blue: blue
25. Spring or Fall: fall
26. Are you bored: often
27. Last noise you heard: a car
28. Last time you went out of the state: when i went to mass for my cousins wedding
29. Things you like in a girl/guy: funny, trustworthy, caring, cute smile
30. Do you have a crush on someone: not at the moment
31. What book are you reading now: n/a
32. Worst feeling in the world: caring about someone and them not caring back.
33. What is the first thing you think when you wake up: what time is it?
34. How many rings before you answer: like 2
35. Do you sleep with a stuffed animal: i sleep with my body pillow
36. If you could have any job you wanted, what would it be: yeah, somewhere with animals or kids
37. Are you a lefty, righty or ambidextrous: righty
38. Do you type with your fingers on the right keys: sometimes
39. What's under your bed: at home: nothing
40. Favorite sport to watch: tennis
41. What was the first sandwhich you remember eating? no idea
42. Siblings: brother matt
43. Location: Baltimore
44. College plans: no idea yet
45. Piercings: 3 ears and my eye brow, i had my tounge but that didnt last long.
46. Boyfriend/Girlfriend: nope

47. Do you do drugs: nope
48. Do you drink: not really
49. Who is your best friend: dara and sean
50. What kind of shampoo and conditioner do you use: bed head
51. What are you most scared of: being alone
52. What clothes do you sleep in: sweat pants and a t-shirt
53. Who is the last person who called you: dara
54. Where do you want to get married: somewhere fabulous..
55. Who do you really hate: 'collers popers'
56. Favorite number: 8
57. Been in Love?: neh
58. Are you timely or always late: late
59. Do you have a job: yes
60. Do you like being around people: i love people
61. Best feeling in the world: prob being inlove, but i couldent say iv ever felt that.
62. Are you for world peace: yes
63. Are you a health freak: haha not really

64. Have you ever loved someone you had no chance with: Im not sure really..
65. Have you ever cried over something someone of the opposite sex did: are you kidding..
66. Do you have a "type" of person you always go after: not really
67. Want someone you don't have right now: sometimes
68. Are you lonely right now: i have my friends, thats all i really need.
69. Ever afraid you'll never get married: yep
70. Do you want to get married: yea
71. Do you want kids/if yes, how many: i don't know yet.

72. Room in house: my room
73. Type(s) of music: Rock, pop, punk
74. Band: Something Corporate
75. Memory: when i was a kid
76. Day of the week: fridays
77. Color: pink
78. Perfume or cologne: that britney spears shit smells amazing
79. Month: may

80. Cried: no
81. Bought something: dinner
82. Gotten sick: allergies
83. Sang: yes
84. Said "I Love You": Yes
85. Wanted to tell someone you loved them: depends how you think of this question..
86. Met someone new: yes, last night at the bookstore.. i made a new friend!! :)
87. Moved on: no
88. Talked to someone: yes
89. Missed someone: yes
90. Hugged someone: yes
91. Kissed someone: yes
92. Fought with your parents: no
93. Had a lot of sleep: nope

94. been drunk: yeah
95. smoked pot: yeah
96. kissed a member of the opposite sex: yes
97. kissed a member of the same sex: mwah!!
98. crashed a friend's car: no
99. been to japan: no
100. ridden in a taxi: no
101. been in love: stop asking NO!
102. had sex in public: nope
103. been dumped: yeah
104. shoplifted: yeeah
105. been fired: nope.
106. been in a fist fight: nope
107. had a threesome: haha close, but no.
108. snuck out of my parent's house: yup
109. been tied up (sexually): haha no
110. been caught masturbating: that would be so funny!!
111. pissed on myself: no
112. had sex with a member of the same sex: no
113. been arrested: nope
114. made out with a stranger: yeah
115. stole something from my job: nope
116. celebrated new years in time square: no
117. had a news years kiss, if so, who?: i was passed out before midnight
118. gone on a blind date: no
119. lied to a friend: yea
120. had a crush on a teacher: no
121. celebrated mardi-gras in new orleans: no
122. been to europe: nope
123. skipped school: many times
124. slept with a co-worker: no
125. had sex at the office: nope
126. been married: no
127. gotten divorced: no
128. had children: no
129. stripped at a party: no
130. literally crawled to your house drunk, even if just from across the street: i dont think so
131. jumped off a bridge: yeah, its a hobbie of mine.. no
132. gone surfing: nope
133. had a mullet: no
134. peed in public (i.e. not in a restroom): a bush

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blaah [22 Apr 2005|02:46pm]
[ mood | amused ]

What do people really think about you?
by Raven319
favorite song
Parents thinkYou're sleeping around
Strangers thinkYou're hot
Friends thinkYou're wonderful
Quiz created with MemeGen!

I should start updating more [17 Mar 2005|02:35am]
[ mood | amused ]

I've been having a good time with life lately, lets see how much long this is gonna last..


[21 Feb 2005|02:30pm]
[ mood | sad ]

I've never hurt anyone before, I don't know what to do??

I think i just may have lost my best friend..


[15 Feb 2005|03:25pm]
[ mood | amused ]

Could this holiday be anymore lame?
..i think not
oh well, atleast i have plans for tonight.

[07 Feb 2005|11:33pm]
[ mood | amused ]

I just had to re-do my whole computer because it wasnt working right. I forgot to put all my pictures and all this other stuff i had on to back up disks. im fucked man!

anyways, my aunt got married today. She looked so pretty. :)
the wedding was at her house, they had it set up so great..

did anyone care about the super bowl tonight??

im gonna go find something to do, ill update more when my life gets exciting. hah


[12 Jan 2005|02:16am]
Life.. its a big shithole sometimes.
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ughh [21 Dec 2004|04:28pm]
[ mood | angry ]


someone shoot me before i shoot myself.

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